I just had a past life healing today that showed me the
power of embarrassment – not shame, but embarrassment. Even if you don’t
believe in past lives, bear with me. In
this past life, it was the 1950s and I was hit by a drunk driver. I was in
shock and wanted to scream but I couldn’t. Then I died. The kicker was that I
felt embarrassed before I died, because I created such a scene. Yup. This made
sense to me, especially for that time when women were conditioned to be nice
and to people please. I also believed then
that no one could help me because I died before the rush of people came to my
aid. You know what? I carried that emotional pattern into this lifetime of
feeling embarrassed whenever I get hurt and that no one can help me. I have a
pattern of holding a stoic position that I have to figure it out all by myself
and just to suck it up.
This lifetime has given me many opportunities to change this
pattern but I just wasn’t learning the lesson. I have been a victim of sexual
assault, been cheated on by an ex, and had a smear campaign by a narcissistic
partner. Each of those times I barely told a soul. I just sucked it up and felt
embarrassed that this happened to me. Suppressing all of this led to chronic back
pain, feeling isolated and having anxiety attacks.
This session made me wonder how many times other people do
this. When they get genuinely hurt through no fault of their own they clam up
and internalize it and don’t tell a soul. How tragic, right? The worst part is
that those emotions get blocked and clogged in them. They become disconnected
from others, lose closeness and don’t get to truly let go emotionally of the
hurt inside. As much as they may want to move forward, they just can’t. The incidents
and secret hurts just linger and fester and become toxic. Imagine if they just
reached out to someone they felt safe with, not worrying what another person
thinks of them and said: “Ouch. I’m hurting. I need help.”
There is nothing to be embarrassed about by being in
emotional, mental or physical pain. That’s life and that’s why we are here – to
help alleviate our and others’ suffering. It’s what actually creates a more
empathetic world. By giving others the opportunity to relate to you and your
experiences, they grow as kinder more compassionate people. Neat, eh?
If this speaks to you, I would love to help you shift these
inner patterns you have that keep you stuck and disconnected. Just book a FREE “Your Next 3 Steps to ThriveAgain” Session so we can chat and see how you can start moving forward instead
of letting the past hold a grip on you.
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